You ever just watch someone slowly destroy themselves, crashing and burning, like being in a helicopter and watching a freight train heading towards a collapsed bridge? There's nothing you can do, so you just kind of shake your head, but you can't look away? Yeah, I've been doing that for a while with someone. It's funny but sad to watch their heartfelt (but untrue) cries of, "No! No! I've changed! I've learned from my mistakes!", all the while talking nonsensically of love and light and happiness and renewal and hope and change and OMG IT'S ALL BULLSHIT! You have NOT changed, you are STILL doing the same things that fuck you up and sabotage yourself, and you stick your fingers in your ears and REFUSE to hear anything other than your sycophantic friends saying, "Oh, that's so great! Things will work out! Good luck!" IT WON'T WORK OUT. You're setting yourself up for the same failure you've set yourself up for time and time again, and when it inevitably happens you'll cry and wonder why the universe is so against you. Truth be told, the universe couldn't give two shits about you - YOU'RE DOING THIS TO YOURSELF YOU FUCKING MORON.
Gives. Me. AGITA.
(By the way, if you think this is about you, it probably isn't, 'cause I have no problem telling you the truth to your face - YOU'RE FUCKED UP! :P Welcome to the club!)