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I'd like to stop counting at 4, please...

Just found out ANOTHER one of my friends is now HIV-positive. 3 out of 4 of my HIV+ friends seroconverted during the time I knew them.

I have a lot of anger right now and want to spout off about the ridiculousness of it all, but I'm afraid I'll offend some of my friends here, so instead, I'm going to bed. I'm over it. Goodnight.


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Apr. 6th, 2009 04:19 am (UTC)
Shit...I'm sorry...
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Apr. 6th, 2009 04:26 am (UTC)
Apr. 6th, 2009 04:33 am (UTC)
I hear ya, but can't say I'm not guilty of unsafe activity in the past. Still, humans are HUMAN, moments of weakness and drunken in the heat of passion/moment could cloud one's judgment, either that or they're just plain irresponsible, not thinking or just really unlucky. Long ago I've chatted with a 18 years old guy, still in high school, he got infected with the 2nd guy he ever had sex with, and that was that at 18, just sucks. I don't really know him, but I feel angry and frustrated for him some how.
Apr. 6th, 2009 01:10 pm (UTC)
I wouldn't be so angry about the latest if he hadn't already had two false positive test result scares. There's being human, and there's bug hunting, which is FUCKED RIGHT THE FUCK UP.

Again, very angry, and will shut up for now.
Apr. 8th, 2009 07:06 pm (UTC)

But I think there's something to be said about living in a culture that really doesn't want us. I've known so many people who heard all their lives they were going to die or deserved to die, and even without realizing they found ways to make it happen.

So many of us are in that category.
Apr. 8th, 2009 08:31 pm (UTC)
I agree there's both societal loathing and self-loathing issues involved here - I see the signs in some of these people, trust me - but that, IMHO, still doesn't excuse it. These are people who are MORE than capable of overcoming, and yet they CHOSE to roll over and behave dangerously, even after copious amounts of warning.

I dunno. I'm really not trying to make judgements about people's behaviors, because no one's really at fault, but I'm still just fucking angry.
Apr. 6th, 2009 01:50 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry to hear it, honey.
Apr. 6th, 2009 03:29 pm (UTC)
Yeah. I have a buddy who's my age, and has been out since the mid-80's, who just sero-converted a couple years ago. It was all I could do not to slap him when he told me.
Apr. 7th, 2009 06:22 am (UTC)
I understand your frustration but it's like when my cousins started having kids at a young age -- before it happens, vent all you like, but after it happens -- keep your mouth shut and be as supportive as is humanly possible.

If you can't, then I can tell you that you won't be doing them much good.
Apr. 7th, 2009 02:47 pm (UTC)
This is why I'm shutting up.

It doesn't help that this latest one had TWO false positive test results, and still continued to behave irresponsibly. There's making a mistake, and there's bug hunting. Issues fucking abound.
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