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Wednesday happenings


Lazy day at work today. Found out The Center wants us to delay the start time for the LYC car wash on Sunday because the church group that meets in the morning is having an event. (Good thing I called to confirm!)

Today was Rebecca's birthday so Ebonye and I got her a card and a little chocolate cake, and next week we'll probably take her out to lunch and may all chip in to get her a couple of frames and finally hang the artwork she's had in her office since we moved in.

I spent some time making a new splash page for G'con to wrap it up and encourage people to buy t-shirts (check here tomorrow if urban_bohemianBrian has time to put it up).

Got a call from darkscydeDaniel at the end of the day that he and xiaomozi666Tri had another fight about their lack of communication and it ended with their breaking up. :( I'm sure they're both very broken up about it, but hopefully they'll be able to be friends because I know they still care about each other very much.

Came home and did more laundry and cleaned up my cabinet in the kitchen. thomasmMyke and jkustersJohn got busy steam cleaning the living room carpet, which was quite a job (but turned out great). So a productive evening getting ready for the SDQSF BBQ on Saturday afternoon.

Oh, and of course I had a lovely chat with my Q. Caught him up on the gossip of the day (the post-Pennsic encampment dramas, jpiconJacob and lpaladinDaniel's ceremony announcement not appearing in the Pennsic Independent, Daniel and Tri's fight about bowling and gaming, Michelle at work getting hit with a softball, etc.). He's been in much better spirits since Pennsic. And then at the end he said that even though he had to get to sleep to get up early he didn't want to hang up because he likes talking to me. AWWWWWWWWWWWWW! My li'l puddin'. :) I lurves him so.

Now, I'm tired and off to bed. G'nite.

P.S. No more buying chocolate, candy or cookies for the next 3 months - I'm overstocked! Ugh!

Comments

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xiaomozi666
Aug. 26th, 2004 12:19 am (UTC)
I don't think I can
esprix
Aug. 26th, 2004 09:08 am (UTC)
I think you will, but it'll take a while. That's understandable.
xiaomozi666
Aug. 26th, 2004 09:38 am (UTC)
I don't think I ever will. I don't know was it miscommunication again, but after hearing what he have to say about our troubled relationship yesterday afternoon, I felt it was a waste for me to get involved with him in the first place. I did what he wanted us to be, "friends". If that's what he want and suggested, then his wish is granted. But I can't do it. Tell Daniel I said Happy "Early" Birthday for me.
jkusters
Aug. 26th, 2004 09:57 am (UTC)
One question for you: You told us what Daniel wanted. Did you tell him what you want?

JOhn.
xiaomozi666
Aug. 26th, 2004 10:10 am (UTC)
I don't think it matters what I wanted anymore after listening to his point of view about our relationships. I don't want him to continue on with what I called an "unhealthy relationship" with him if he's not happy. I don't want him to go through that pain and frustration again. He's probably better off without me if I caused him pain.
jkusters
Aug. 26th, 2004 10:28 am (UTC)
You'll feel the way you want to feel, but in my book it always matters what my partner wants. Life is tough enough without having to guess about what my partner wants. So I ask. If he doesn't respond, I ask again. "I don't know" is always an acceptable answer, but for me, silence is never acceptable.

For the future, remember that your partner needs to know what is going on in your head. Relationship telepathy is a myth. The only way your partner will know is if you tell him. Believe me, I learned this the hard way. Don't repeat my mistake! :-)

JOhn.
xiaomozi666
Aug. 26th, 2004 10:41 am (UTC)
I'm still young. I'll learn from my mistake. This is only my first relationship. I'm just getting the feel of it. But I don't think I'll wanna go through that again. I'm frightened. *sigh* oh, well!
jkusters
Aug. 26th, 2004 09:17 am (UTC)
Give it some more time, like a month or two, and hopefully you'll feel differently.

Heartbreak heals, but slowly.

JOhn.
xiaomozi666
Aug. 26th, 2004 09:31 am (UTC)
It'll be hard to put back those shattered pieces of my heart together. I can't be with someone if they find me more as friends only than boyfriends in the past 6 and a half month. Did he not meant when he said he loved me? no. all he said to me yesterday afternoon was that he cared deeply about me a "liked" me a lot. he has no emotional feeling toward me at all. I thought I would be the one to hurt his feelings as he would of predict, but ironically, I'm the one with the broken heart.
jkusters
Aug. 26th, 2004 09:55 am (UTC)
If you think you're the only one hurting in this situation, you are very much mistaken. It's not my place to relate any details, but I do know that Daniel cares for you very deeply and it completely destroys him to know you are in pain. I don't think you know him as well as you think you do.

And yes, you will get past this. You are not the only one who has suffered heartbreak. I know people who have been partners for much more than 6.5 months and then broke up, and you know what? They have scars, but they eventually got past the heartbreak. I've been there myself, and while I have never forgotten, I have put it behind me.

Sometimes love means letting someone go to find a better place in life. When things are not working out, it is more loving to end the relationship than it is to make both people miserable by trying to extend it. Will you both be friends when this is over? Only time will tell, but I encourage you to give it a try.

Good luck, kiddo. I think you're both good people, and I'm saddened that you're going through tough times.

JOhn.
adventdragon
Aug. 26th, 2004 10:58 am (UTC)
I know LJ's not the best way to communicate this, but I feel I need to do so. At the start of the relationship, I did feel love. I still do, but the dynamic of that love has changed. There are just some things in our relationship that have developed, that evidently we can't work around. Communication being the most important of the issues. That was made very evident in our discussion yesterday. I was forced to make a decision, and sadly I had to pretty much make it on my own. I was pleading for your input Tri. I wanted to know what you felt, what you wanted, and you couldn't bring yourself to tell me. You could only go along with what I felt would be best for both of us. A relationship just cannot function like this. If you won't express what you want, and how you feel about this, this...the most critical time to speak your mind, then what am I supposed to do? It hurts Tri.
I lay in my room looking at our pictures, and I can't help but feel sadness, and doubt...doubt of if I made the right decision. It hurts me even more to know you don't think we can make a friendship work. I can only hope in time you change your mind. Your heart's not the only one that's broken Tri. I'm in as much grief as you are. Finally, YES it matters what you want! I tried to get you to tell me. I told you that if I'm driving our relationship on my own then I'm going to drive us into the ground. I need your help. Your response? "Well drive us into the ground then." What am I supposed to do with that? I made a decision that I hoped would be best for both of us. I hope you realize that. I care about you so much Tri, but I'd be doing us both a disservice if we stayed in the relationship knowing I've had these feelings. Just give things time. Let the hurt subside, and see where you stand. Like I said, I'll check in on you from time to time. I don't want you out of my life.
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adventdragon
Aug. 26th, 2004 01:11 pm (UTC)
Just give things time sweetie. Give things time. It's supposed to hurt now. Let's just see what happens down the road.
xiaomozi666
Aug. 26th, 2004 01:43 pm (UTC)
Honestly, I wanted to work things out, but after hearing how you felt about "us", I don't think it's a good idea anymore so whatever you decide I'm down with that. Love is pain and always will be. I'll just have to deal with it. I don't want you out of my life also, but I can't be friends with someone that I can't have or fucked-up. It'll hurt too much. I'm sorry.
downeastmike
Aug. 26th, 2004 05:49 am (UTC)
((Jacob and Daniel's ceremony announcement not appearing in the Pennsic Independent,))

You mean its_just_me and paladin_of_gaia?
esprix
Aug. 26th, 2004 09:08 am (UTC)
Yup.
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esprix
Aug. 26th, 2004 09:09 am (UTC)
No, not yet. Haven't gotten then developed yet. (Some of us old-fashioned folks still use actual physical prints - shocking, I know.)
jkusters
Aug. 26th, 2004 09:17 am (UTC)
You're so *retro*. And not in a good way. ;-)

JOhn.
esprix
Aug. 26th, 2004 10:58 am (UTC)
Shows what you know. Retro is hip.

I hope.
jkusters
Aug. 26th, 2004 11:53 am (UTC)
Bet you didn't think your post would be the one in which Daniel and Tri tried to communicate, did you?

And keep hoping. It's kinda cute. ;-)

JOhn.
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