April 6th, 2004


3 days to go!

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Tomorrow I'm picking up JV because she's getting her car fixed, which means I actually have to be in on time at 8:00. Ugh.

Tonight was very weird. I'd been working all day on my "to do" list for the con, updating it and striking things off as I took care of what I needed to do. The more I looked at it, though, the more I realized either (a) other staff members were handling it and I just needed to follow up with them, or (b) it involved making phone calls, not necessarily running around or having to actually do anything. But keeping it open there kept me focussed, which is good. Unfortunately, when I left work I forgot to e-mail me the updated list, which I realized when I got to Q's. Then for the rest of the night I had this really uneasy feeling - why am I not in a frenzy and/or panicking and/or stressing out?!?! Truly, isn't that what a Con Chair is supposed to be doing 3 days before the convention? And yet there I was, schmoozing with a GoH and having dinner and going shopping with my boyfriend, and even though I kept going over my list in my mind, sure I'd forgotten something vitally important, nothing changed - it's all basically just phone calls, and all of them I can only do during working hours, so there's nothing I could do about it tonight anyway.

It was quite unsettling - either it means things were going so amazingly swimmingly well that it was near impossible to imagine, or I was missing some vastly huge important thing that come Friday at 12:30 pm will loom over me and eat my con.

Or something.

Very weird feeling. Don't like it at all. Very unsettling. I will be happy again when I have my list in front of me so I can methodically check off each item as it is completed, thereby giving me some comforting feeling that I have not, indeed, forgotten anything.

At least, that is, if I've remembered to write it down...

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